Life Goes On...

Its kind of scary how one minute everything could seem so perfect and the very next minute that could all change… I guess I never thought it would happen to “me” I had heard of these things before and my heart broke every time but when it hits home it truly shakes you to the core.

On Thursday night our second pregnancy came to an end…. we were told that our baby’s heart had stopped beating and there was no fetal activity….those words are still ringing in my ears. It was extremely hard because just one week ago we saw the baby moving around & the heart beating, our doctor said at that time things looked great., we were so relieved and thought we were “in the clear.”

These things happen from time to time and mostly because there is something wrong with the developing fetus…the doctors reassured us that it was nothing that I did to make this happen but its hard not to question my every move…"was it the cold I caught last month??….was it from sleeping on my back???….was it from climbing through the playscapes with Blake??”….I know deep down it wasn’t me, but at a time like this it’s hard not to question yourself, & mostly your faith...and the problem with this is that at times like these its when you most need your faith and faith in yourself….

We are all hurting and we are sure that it will take time to heal but we know that this has happened for a reason….when I look into the eyes of our beautiful son I can understand how God would want to have an angel just like him as his own & I understand that this baby is now with God watching over us & out of harms way. This has happened for reasons we will never truly understand, I know that it was meant to be and I am at peace knowing this and knowing that I have a beautiful, loving, healthy family right here in front of me & my boys are more than I could ever ask for.

So, while I am sad to have to share this news I am happy because I know that I will get through this because of my faith and the amazing people in my life that have supported me & my family in ways that we will forever be grateful for. I know that God will never give me anything that I can’t handle and though I might not understand exactly why I know that it just must be part of a bigger plan…at times like these you must stop to reflect on how lucky you really are. My eyes have been opened to see even further what a miracle life truly is, I have always loved my son so much and I didn’t think it was possible to love him any more but the past few days my love for this child has grown in some many ways…it almost feels like my heart could explode. Every time I hold his tiny hand, hear his tiny voice, or look into to his angelic little face I am reminded of how incredibly blessed I am, how fragile life is, and how I will never ever take for granted what I have.

Gobble Gobble

Well, Thanksgiving has come & gone already, it's hard to believe. The weekend before Thanksgiving my parents came into town & we celebrated an early Thanksgiving on Sunday at my Aunt's house, we had a great time & managed to eat way more than we should have...isn't that the point though??!!??!! Good company & too much food....

Last Saturday we took Blake to see The Radio City Rockettes, he had a great time, he was dancing and singing the whole time and sat like such a perfect little gentleman through the entire show.

Yesterday, Thanksgiving Day we celebrated at Umma Cindy & Papa Mike's house, the dinner was fantastic. Again we managed to eat all day long, stuffing ourselves to the max! We had a wonderful Thanksgiving visiting with all of the family & some that we haven't seen in months...it was really nice to catch up with everyone!

Blake enjoyed the holidays, he likes to tell us what a turkey says..."gobble, gobble, gobble," & it comes out so cute, we laugh every time. He is quite the little performer these days as well, he is confident that he is the funniest little guy around, he laughs at himself all day long. He loves to dance & sing, his favorite song right now is "Jingle Bells", well either that or "Hot Crust Buns." Blake is also quite the little piano player, we enjoy watching his performances at Umma Cindy's house....we are sure there is a place at Juilliard awaiting our little superstar!

Not a day passes that we are not completely amazed at all that our little boy has accomplished...we are so proud of Blake and can't seem to get enough of his silly grins & goofy stories. I really understand more than ever before why people say to cherish these moments because they will pass so quickly, our little Blake is approaching 2 and I feel like he was JUST BORN, Adam & I both agree that these have been the BEST 2 years of our lives and we are positive that we have the smartest, cutest, sweetest, best, best, best son in the world!!!

Being that it was Thanksgiving we we took a moment to thank God for all that we have to be thankful for; our health, our family & friends, our home, & so much more. We hope that everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving and as we gear up for Christmas, we wish you all a stress free December as you all prepare for the next big holiday!!

Fall has arrived

So September practically flew by. My sister's shower & bachlorette party went off without a hitch, & we all managed to have a fabulous time.

The wedding was next and it couldn't have gone better, Teresa was the most beautiful bride and the day was perfect. The sun was shining and the weather was surprisingly warm...for an October day in northern Michigan.

We haven't been so lucky now that we are home, it has been very chilly and the nights are COLD, I guess it's to be expected. I do love this time of year because it is so beautiful to see all the leaves change colors and the fall is just somehow relaxing to me.

Blake is doing great, we have started another class, "Milk & Cookies" it's filled with fun little dances & songs, along with story time. He is so quick to pick up on things, we have to be very careful what we say around him because chances are he is going to repeat it. He has become quite the little gentleman as well, always saying please & thank you...it simply makes me melt every time:). Blake was also the ring bearer in my sister's wedding, he did a good job, he was a bit shy so he walked down the aisle with me but at least he made it down the aisle, he was a handsome little guy in his tux!

Now we are getting ready for Halloween, Blake can't wait. He has been practicing saying trick-or-treat for most of October so I am confident he will be ready to roll. He is dressing up as a monkey this year, it's adorable!

I guess that's all for now.

September Already??

I can't believe it is already September, where did the summer go??

This is going to be a busy month for us...and next month too. My sister Teresa is getting married at the beginning of October to an absolutely wonderful man, Bob. We are so happy that she has found her soul mate, we just love Bob.

I am heading up to Traverse City for Teresa's bridal shower this weekend, it will be at this historical Inn on peninsula, it's a beautiful place for a shower. My mother & I have been planning for months and can't wait to host the party.

Blake is now a year and a half & is growing like crazy, he had a doctor's appointment on Wednesday...2 shots, not much fun but he was a champ about it. He is 32 pounds and just shy of 3 feet tall, he is in the 9oth percentile. Blake is talking up a storm, its so incredible watching him develop his own personality. He loves to be the center of attention and will do whatever it takes to get a laugh out of people. I am completely fascinated at all of his accomplishments in the past year and a half (yes, I am the proud bragging mom...). Blake knows sign language well, is learning his colors, can pick up tunes like you wouldn't believe, is very social, and so much more. He is such an affectionate little guy as well, he absolutely loves to give hugs & kisses, this is great because we just can't seem to get enough...

There is more BIGGG NEWWWS....Adam's brother Ryan and his lovely wife Lisa are expecting triplets! We are all very excited and can't wait to meet the three little angels. We know that they will be amazing parents and are so happy for them.

Happy Birthday month to Adam as well...my dear hubby will be celebrating his 27th birthday on the 19th of this month.

Well, I guess this is about all to report at this time.

Stay tuned...........................

A Glimpse

I have been saying that I was going to get this thing up and running and well, here I am finally... I started this blog so I could keep my family & friends updated on what is happening in our world...

Here we go... I am 26 years old. I have been married for almost four years now to my wonderful husband Adam. We have one son, Blake, he is 18 months old and the center of our world. Parenthood is truly the most incredible thing imaginable. Our family is the pretty standard American fam...I have been at home with Blake since he was born. I never really knew what it meant to be a "stay at home mom" until I lived it, don't get me wrong I love being able to spend each day with Blake, but I guess I just really had no clue as to how much work it truly entailed. Watching Blake change each day is great, he is the sweetest child, I love every second I get to spend with him.

We have had a pretty busy summer, it has been great really. I am not really a sit still kind of a person so being on the move is just fine by me.The beginning of June Adam and I snuck away to Mexico for an entire week! It was fabulous and just what we needed, anyone who is married and has a baby knows that time for each other tends to be a scarce resource...especially time alone to talk & reconnect, and that precisely what we got...thank you Mexico!! It was a little difficult leaving Blake behind for an entire week, but we left him in great hands and knew it was something we had to do for us.

Then in July Adam graduated from NADA, this was a school that is located Washington, DC, he was there for 7 weeks over the course of the year studying hard...we couldn't be more proud of all of his accomplishments! So we traveled to DC for a long weekend to see Adam and his brother Ryan graduate, it was very nice. While we were there we saw a lot of the sights as well.

Our next adventure was to New York City...one of my favorite places in the world! My sister in law Alyssa has danced there for the past 3 summers, she is involved in a program that is carefully orchestrated by the Radio City Rockettes. Blake and I went on this trip with my mother and father in law....and Alyssa of corse leaving Adam behind, he was unable to come out due to work. We had a fabulous time while we were there, we visited the fire museum, which Blake loved, shopped a little, Blake went on his very first carriage ride around Central Park, and went to see Chicago on Broadway...

Now we are home, well at least for a few more days, Blake and I are taking our annual trip up north to see my parents for 2 weeks. We can't wait to see them!

So I guess that is about all for now, I am sure I am leaving out so much but I guess I will try to keep things updated from this point on.